Ever since the return from my trip, it’s been a busy and hectic time. I almost forgot about this blog actually. Which is kind of funny but maybe I just didn’t need this as an outlet for the last couple of months? In any case, let’s update things a bit shall we.
Still in the same relationship. Circumstances dictate this for a few more months. I have many physical things to deal with and once those are done…well, there is the whole “when” thing. I am going through another stage of ‘shedding’. The whole ‘getting rid of physical attachments’. Did this once before when I moved, doing so again.
What is odd but interesting is that I pretty much know what I need for the next leg of my journey. My partner should be the perfect compliment for the new endeavours I am about to embark on. There are certain skills that I am keenly aware of in which I lack. Not having someone who is even remotely close to balancing out that part of me has been a significant reason why my progress has been slow. Either you learn new skills or you find those who can both enhance yours and be enhanced by the skills you do posses. My current partner, I believe, gets more from me than I from them.
Still, having a purely intellectual understanding of the things you are keenly aware of does not grant immediate release of the emotions attached to the situation at all. Even the couple of potentials that I met while away may not be the answer. Should the opportunity even come up, there will be significant discussion on what I am looking for in a relationship. This will obviously include my own general beliefs about life. If there is one thing that will ruin a relationship that would be having two completely different views on how the whole universe works.
I think I might give them this blog and say ‘read this. understand this. know me.’. There is certainly a lot of me here and explains a lot of my core being.
Still, there is that nagging fear that ‘what if you don’t find that perfect significant other while you are in a foreign country trying to make a living?’. That is an ugly and crippling thought if one were to give into it.
Regardless, I’m still moving along with my progress and have a set time for a point of significant change coming up. Next spring will see quite a difference in my life.