Being ever the impulsive person who follows their heart and intuition, I made a play for this other person I have this connection with….and it failed miserably. Friend-zoned miserably.
I’m getting kinda tired at being in this place where nothing seems to match what I’m looking for, where I am or where I belong. Today I was very angry for nearly the entire day. Kept to myself mostly. See, the older/veterans at work know each other well, the younger ones are just that….younger. I’m essentially excluded from both groups based on a couple of discriminating factors(familiarity and age).
The people I’m interested in can’t get past the whole ‘friend thing’, despite that being a rather critical part of any relationship and despite them constantly making bad choices based entirely superficial decisions and ideals.
I’m taking a step back from being the ‘nice person’ who ‘makes me laugh’. That just doesn’t get me anywhere. I’m either the funny friend or the amusing older person. Neither of which get me anywhere I want to be.
Maybe I’ll just go back to hanging with some needy married people. At least there was some energizing sex then….