What I need…

I recently had the most amazing experience in my life.  At the time it happened, I was doing nothing but fighting my intellect to accept the experience.  For someone like me, who loves that etheric moment you get when something happens and it’s impossible to explain it in any rational way, I was able to experience a perspective where I literally saw myself so wrapped up in my own mind that I was nearly missing out on what was going on right in front of me.

See, I know that I need someone who can stand my piercing insight.  In fact, that insight is seemingly one of the biggest reasons why my relationships have never been balanced.  My other half was not even close to being able to keep up in personal development/intuitive sparks.  Sure, that might sound like ego but I can assure it, it is not.  I have seen it happen way too often to believe otherwise.

So there I was, having a good and deep conversation with someone I recently met and they did the same to me as I have done to others.  Gleaned that deep insight into what I am looking for in a partner and I was so busy intellectualizing my path that I almost missed it.  Afterwards when I got home, I laid in bed and was in awe of that moment.  That connection into my psyche and I knew, I need that in a partner.

Now, I doubt said person who gleaned that from me, is ‘the one’.  I hardly even know the person but what I do know is that for that brief moment, I knew exactly what I need in my life and my focus is now sharper for it.  It was one of those moments that you just know was a stepping stone in the right directions.

In fact, my whole recent journey has done nothing but move me forward in ways I couldn’t conceive of prior to taking this path.  People say they’ll ‘do this or that’ when ‘their ducks are in a row’.  They are waiting for that moment.  Problem is, ducks are only ever ‘in a row’ when they are moving.  So yes, my ducks are in a row and I am certainly moving.

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Biding your time

Have you ever been in a relationship where you knew it was going to end? There was no absolute time/date set, you just knew it would happen. How do you deal with such a thing? Do you radiate malice to its end? Our how about just hostility to the other? What if there was no reason for it ending other than you just need a change? The other person is not necessarily a bad person, they just don’t seem to suit you any more.

How do you let them know? Do you really try to work it out but deep down you know they aren’t going to change and all the things, little and big, have finally added up to something that you really don’t want to work with at all.

Should you just one say, pack up while they were out and leave a note? Is that really cowardly? Or simply the cleanest way to break the tie.

Does the other even deserve anything more than a goodbye note?

None of theses question can even be answered by any of you. There is more to any given situation than outsiders really know and the only answer that matters is the one I give it.