What I need…

I recently had the most amazing experience in my life.  At the time it happened, I was doing nothing but fighting my intellect to accept the experience.  For someone like me, who loves that etheric moment you get when something happens and it’s impossible to explain it in any rational way, I was able to experience a perspective where I literally saw myself so wrapped up in my own mind that I was nearly missing out on what was going on right in front of me.

See, I know that I need someone who can stand my piercing insight.  In fact, that insight is seemingly one of the biggest reasons why my relationships have never been balanced.  My other half was not even close to being able to keep up in personal development/intuitive sparks.  Sure, that might sound like ego but I can assure it, it is not.  I have seen it happen way too often to believe otherwise.

So there I was, having a good and deep conversation with someone I recently met and they did the same to me as I have done to others.  Gleaned that deep insight into what I am looking for in a partner and I was so busy intellectualizing my path that I almost missed it.  Afterwards when I got home, I laid in bed and was in awe of that moment.  That connection into my psyche and I knew, I need that in a partner.

Now, I doubt said person who gleaned that from me, is ‘the one’.  I hardly even know the person but what I do know is that for that brief moment, I knew exactly what I need in my life and my focus is now sharper for it.  It was one of those moments that you just know was a stepping stone in the right directions.

In fact, my whole recent journey has done nothing but move me forward in ways I couldn’t conceive of prior to taking this path.  People say they’ll ‘do this or that’ when ‘their ducks are in a row’.  They are waiting for that moment.  Problem is, ducks are only ever ‘in a row’ when they are moving.  So yes, my ducks are in a row and I am certainly moving.

The date is set…

I have been going through so much in the last little while, hence why I’ve been quite the silent person of late.

I’m still a bit reserved about some of the details but i can say this….it will be a much needed break.  I remember years ago I would go on this long drive, meet some friends and camp on this private land for a week.  First rule, “Watch comes off at the gate.”  It was a good rule.  Times have changed but if this break was to camp, I would welcome turning off any tech because after a week in the wilds, I was quite recharged.  I seemed to always come home with this perma-smile that lasted two weeks at least.  I gained an insane amount of perspective on life and looked forward to the next year again.

I realized that what I’m about to do is the same.  It is just time to be me.  No limits. No significant concerns.  Just me being me.  A “getting away from it all” deal.  Maybe ask my ranting had been due to not having any real “me time”.  Maybe not.  That is a big part of why I’m doing this.  I need to know something.  Something about me.  How this will be done….not sure yet.  Oh I got some ideas but I’m working hard not to force my future into a particular box. I want this to flow as it should, not as I wish it.  I need to “ride the Dragon”, to borrow a phrase. I’m going to give up control so that I may have a clear vision of the path before me.

In doing so, I consider this a ritual of sorts and a ritual has certain requirements to be done.  This event in my life had been marked in a way I will never forget.  There have been so many things that has happened to make this possible that I’m nearly stunned at how easy it has been to set up.  The insane amount of good fortune is awe inspiring.  Theses are the things you need to pay attention to in order to realize that you are exactly where you should be and your desires become manifest.

Deja-vu

That feeling you’ve seen something before.  Not to be confused with “Deja-rue”(I’ve been down this road before) or the more famous “Deja-moo”(I think I’ve seen that cow before).

I’ve heard many explanations, like it’s just your brain seeing information in the wrong order.  Yet the ones I have experienced have been nothing short of mind-blowing at times.  They range from “that is awfully damn familiar” to the feeling that I literally just walked into my body.

Some claim prescient.  I look at them as metaphysical road signs that I am on the right track.  There was never any consistency or regularity with my experiences.  They just happened whenever.  I can’t even remember when the last one happened and I’ll probably never get around to writing them down.  I just go by what my intuition says when they happen.

For me, when they do happen, I feel like I literally just walked into my body. Not as in bumped into but as in I just spiritually made a physical connection to it. Like I just put on a wetsuit but more like pushed into it. The more aware of this sensation, the stronger the meaning I believe.

Still, something to note and watch. Patterns tell all.