You know, I’m getting real tired of being stood up. Is it really too much to ask for a simple text “sorry, can’t make it”? Am I worth so little of your fucking time that this is the world biggest fucking chore?
This is the 3rd time someone has done this to me. Although one of them still has an opportunity to redeem themselves because it is entirely possible something really important just literally came up and needs attention. Hey, I get that. It’s just that if you can’t find the time to text me the next day, then fuck you and your lack of integrity.
I just don’t get people like this. If you can’t follow through on plans, then just don’t fucking make them!
Why the hell can’t people be more considerate?
I mean, we make some ‘tentative’ plans, with the understanding that it might not happen. I’m fine with that but when it doesn’t happen, then you fucking let me know. Don’t leave me hanging all damn day without even a ‘sorry, can’t make it’ message. Fuck. Is it really that hard to send a message?!
Fuck your ‘I don’t want to disappoint you’ beliefs. You fucking just did. How the fuck did you think I was going to feel? “Oh it’s fine…that’s just the situation.” How about some god damn fucking courtesy?!
For the last week, you’ve done nothing to pull right back. Fuck! It’s really, really annoying to deal with people and their fears that they give in to.
We were ‘on the same page’ without actually saying any words. Things were feeling great, exchanges were energetic and happy. I used to get ‘Good Morning” with a kiss emoji. Now….nothing. You let slip some words and then condemned me for saying the same damn thing.
Yeah, patience was never my strong suit but damn…..courtesy doesn’t seem to be yours. Despite you also accusing me of the same thing.
Also, to that other person who seemed interested but then hid behind the ‘oh well, just someone else on a digital platform that I don’t have to bother getting to know at all despite that’s my whole reason for being here.” Fuck you and your attitude. You ignore questions and can’t put any real effort into even seeing what is possible.
Fuck people today. Just….fuck them.
Being ever the impulsive person who follows their heart and intuition, I made a play for this other person I have this connection with….and it failed miserably. Friend-zoned miserably.
I’m getting kinda tired at being in this place where nothing seems to match what I’m looking for, where I am or where I belong. Today I was very angry for nearly the entire day. Kept to myself mostly. See, the older/veterans at work know each other well, the younger ones are just that….younger. I’m essentially excluded from both groups based on a couple of discriminating factors(familiarity and age).
The people I’m interested in can’t get past the whole ‘friend thing’, despite that being a rather critical part of any relationship and despite them constantly making bad choices based entirely superficial decisions and ideals.
I’m taking a step back from being the ‘nice person’ who ‘makes me laugh’. That just doesn’t get me anywhere. I’m either the funny friend or the amusing older person. Neither of which get me anywhere I want to be.
Maybe I’ll just go back to hanging with some needy married people. At least there was some energizing sex then….
This…..this will be a rant.
Seriously. You just ramble on with stupid observations and idiotic questions. You know something is in one of those boxes but you are not sure if you should open the box you currently have. What the hell do you want me to say? “Oh no, don’t open that box, its full of bad mojo!” Just open the fucking box and see it had the stuff you are looking for!
You repeat the most inane things. You have told me no less than 5 times this one fact. Pointless and obvious at the same time. Seriously, I am being mentally drowned in less-than-mediocre conversation. There is no enlightenment here. There is no stimulation here. I am the only one that brings any kind of laughter into this relationship and I’m tired of it.
You never ask if I’m in the middle of something. How the hell can I possibly pay attention to what you are saying if you never consider that I might be doing something important and woulda like to hear what you are saying but you never, ever think I am occupied. Over a decade later and you still don’t know my basic persona? Fuck.
Fuck me. You said you were going to take a shower, you know I was trying to watch a video and you are still fucking babbling on. I just want to scream!